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I wish i had the time and the courage to try. Just try ones, but I feel to mush like it gonna be a nope. Maybe I could have a learn with me channel, where everyone that's as bad at it as me could learn... and the that is good at it could laugh... cause I'm really that bad. But is try, that must count for somethingomething right. Okey i shouldn't complain, it's not like I need make-up or need to be good at it. I just want to. I have wanted to be a "beauty blogger" on YouTube send I discovered they existed. I still wanna go that Mua course but it's so damn expensive. Like I can't possibly afford it. I think I need to marry rich. Like super rich . Lol. Xoxo

Jag undrar hur många gånger jag har sett Buffy introt by now. Jag har ju sett alla 144 avsnitt ett antal gånger. Sen har jag ju sett vissa avsnitt som "ont more with feeling" 100 gånger medan jag bara sett "Hush" typ 10 ggr. Har nån sett "Hush"? Den är bra men himla läskig. Gillar inte alls gentlemännen och deras hjälpredor som är mentalpatienter i tvångströja som går som gorillor och är sjukt starka. O gentlemännens leenden, är lixom skräckinjagande. Har ni tänkt på att alla i hela Sunnydale sover på precis samma tillfällen den natten som rösterna blir stulna. Vad är oddsen för det? Jobbar ingen på natten eller? Eller har insomnia. För dagen efter när Olivia ser en av gentlemännen så är det ju flera uppe. Dock bara från Scooby gänget och Rileys militär gäng men ändå. Vi vet ju att de har ett sjukhus. Där måste väl någon vara vaken på natten? Man ska inte tänka för mycket när man kollar på tv, för ofta går det inte ihop men jag gör det ofta ändå. ...

Jag älskar prylar.  Att shoppa prylar. Ljus, fidget spinners, pennor,  smink, muggar. Verkligen alla saker! Och nagel prylar oxå. Har du tittat in tidigare så vet ni att jag är totaly Holosexual! Jag har alldeles nyligen handlat holo glitter och holo nagelfolie.  Köksredskap är också roligt, eller kuddar! Hörlurar! Eller varför inte sugrör till kalaset! Vad jag än letar efter eller om jag bara vill randomshoppa så vet jag vart jag ska börja att leta! Här såklart! På fyndiq! Xoxo

Usch vad jobbigt det är. Har så himla ont! Det är läbbigt att han ont i brevlådan ena sidan v kroppen, som om det skulle va något fel på halva mig. Armen värker och brinner p jag vill bra gå o gräva ner mig nån stans. Min Ltd glossybox har inte dykt upp än vilket antagligen är postens fel! Så nyfiken på Maria nila produkterna.  Aldrig testat de förut. Men hört så mycket bra om de så hoppas jag slipper bli besviken! Sonen blev glad iaf när posten kom. Dök upp två fidget spinners i lådan. Xoxo

Vissa är så himla bra på det här! Har ni märkt det? Det finns bloggare som lever på att blogga! Men hur gör man egentligen? Jag har läst och funderat. Inte för att mitt mål är att bli proffsbloggare, men jag var nyfiken. Vad skriver man om? Ni känner inte mig så ni vill inte läsa om mig. Jag älskar smink men jag vet inget om de stora fina märkena. Jag är buffyfreak. Men asså vadå skriva om avsnitten? Kanske egna teorier kan funka! Åsikter och fanfiction? Jag är holosexuell, men holo vem är inte det nu för tiden! De som varit här förut vet att jag tjatar om att jag vill bli en YouTuber. Men jag har inget att lägga upp! Inga idéer inget alls. Har du nån dröm? Xoxo

What do you eat or treat yourself with when you want something special?  I often get some chips or some chocolate. And coffee. I love coffee.  What's your go to? Maybe it's not even food you treat yourself with. Maybe you go do your nails or your lashes? What's your pleasure?  Xoxo

You know those days. The days when everything is a living hell. When you just wanna bury yourself in the sand and don't look up again. I'm having one of those, my body hurts like hell and so does my mind right now. I don't really know why, but that's how it is.  And you know what, that's okey. Everybody has those days and it's not easy for anyone. But as long as you fight you will get past it and you will come out Stronger!  So fight it, if your sitting there right now, crying cz your baby won't let you sleep for the 7 day in a row, if your hating cz your boyfriend been an as again. If your a mess cz you best friend left you or cz your husband won't help at home. Remember that you will come out stronger! You are strong, you are beautiful and you are amazing at what you do! Xoxo

We all know the Holo Queen right? As in Cristine! Maybe u are a fellow Holosexual?  Do u have any holo school supplies? Cz I don't.  U can't find even holo pens in Sweden, and I hate it. I really want a holo notebook.  Xoxo

Hey guys. Haha its been like 4 months since I last was here. I didn't forget I just didn't feel like I had something to say. I guess I don't have now either but I miss writing. You know what I miss more? School, I wanna go back to school.  Have my friends back, go to math class and hate my history homework. But I guess that time is past, at least I got a job with amazing coworkers. Not that I'm there now. No ofcourse not, I'm home sick for an inflammation in my back. It hurts and I couldn't possibly work like this but I really want to. Xoxo

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I'm so bad at blogging that I don't even expect anyone to read it anymore! But if you're here, reading.  I love u girl! Or boy if u are a boy! I love u boy ;). I won a giveaway yesterday on twitter, yeeey. Until people started saying it was fake, or well I suspected that when she said I should have my price within 74 hours. But hay if it shows up I be so amazingly happy! If not, we'll I be just as sad as now. Bawling my eyes out cz I can't even afford the affordable brands. God I'm poor as shit. Love u guys!  Xoxo

Wierd title? Even weirder Dream, last night I had the most wierd drem I've had in ages. I was at my grandmothers summer house with Klaus and a random guy and some girl. You know Klaus from The vampire diaries and The Originals? The hot hybrid. Anyway, for some reason I was biking, and the others were Walking, we were supposted to go to my old home that is about 1 Swedish mile from the house. I was the only one with a bike and we started to walk and bike to our goal. 5mins after start we started talking about love. Klaus told us he never loved anyone, that it was noone that he would ever would die for, noone he would give he´s Life to save. Then one of the others, pretty sure it was the girl, tried to kill me to prove a Point and Klaus jumped in front of me fast as fire, so I wouldn´t get hurt at all. He picked me up and tock me over the road were there for som reason were a Cave. A very very dark Cave. He told me that he needed to protect me cause he didn´t wanna lose...

with these Three songs. okey well one of them is a cover, but still. It's a song. You&I with Liz Gillies https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nst7Jo9YsJA She does it soo good, and she is really Beautiful, also, an Amazing singer. go check it out if u haven't already put it in your main playlist. Have u Heard Teen idle by Marina & The Diamonds? I have, not that I knew the singer beforei looked it up just now. I found the sng thru a fanvid for Kathryn Merteuil, a mix of scenes from diffrent Movies and shows with SMG. I'll link u in case u wanna check it out. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vcOVSQcAmEE the last one is like a lovestory that actually Went right for ones. Don't get me wrong, I've seen love thats been alive til Death do tem apart, but Young love isn't Always like that. Specially not when u fall in love with your best friend, much less when the best friend is of the same sex as you. well at least that is how I see this vid and the song to ...

I soo want a smoke right now. No I'm not gonna get one, but I really want to, even thou I dont wanna smoke. Thats totally normal right? Well when u ones been smoking people say it is totally normal. So i guess it is. maybe I should get that icecream that I know is in the freezer. If this was a vlog u would know now that I did run of to get the icecreambox, but seeing as it is a blog you can't see that. But I did!! =D It's lactos free vanilla icecream with choclate chips and it's so my fav. I just love it right now. I been having a hard time blogging so I haven't been on here a lot, but hey. It's not like I have 5k folloers to make happy so it doesn't really matter. well i see u later. xoxo

If u read that in my ton of voice you would understand how happy I am. I mean how many people get the second job they apply to. So yeah I feel really lucky. I been a substitute in this nursing home for nearly a year now. And I love it so of course I'm happy and I'm good at what I do. I have a lot to learn, really A Lot.  But I'll learn with time, my colleagues are the best so I can ask questions as much as I need and I'll get help if I need it. So I have my first day on schedule on Monday so I hope it will go okey. I know the job of course I do after a year. But it's just so much more now, paperwork and things. Well I guess it will go alright. Cross ur fingers for me. Xoxo

I can't understand how I can be so damn tired. Earlier today I just couldn't keep my eyes open I was so tired I couldn't fight it how much I tried. Now I'm a bit awake but I want coffee so bad, but alias there is no coffee in the car so I just have to wait. On a brighter note. I got the beautieblenders that I bought from a girl in the mail today. Yes they are fake, but they seem okej. Can't try them out though, don't have any foundation yet. I was going to order that from E.L.F cosmetic. But life doesn't always go as I want it to so I'll just have to wait. I really need a job,  okej I have a job but it's as a substitute. I need an all time job. I am looking and I know where I wanna work, I really wanna stay where I am. Where I work as a substitute, and a applied to all jobs that they have but so far no luck. But as they say, never give up hope. Now I'm gonna stop ranting. Xoxo

Some days is just urgh... I feel like crawling under a stone and never come out. Can I do that, can I just sleep for a few days. Cause I don't have the energy for anything else nor the will. I know that I can't do that, there is things that need to be done no matter if you want to or not. Need to work no matter how exhausted I am, cause there's money that's needed. Need to get out of bed every morning. I don't wanna buts it's a must it's important. Oh how much I'm complaining it's horrible. Well tomorrow might be better. Who knows. Xoxo

I just ordered my very first glossybox, the Swedish one of course. I'll just hope it's good. From what I heard and read it's good. But the brands isn't always ones you know of. Anyway I'm so excited, I mean I'm always up for trying something new! Are you?? Check the link and get your glossybox! https://m.youtube.com/channel/UCFFxLHguUkGUfOJ9-GZddGQ Xoxo

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God I'm so tired. I feel like I'm gonna fall asleep where I stand. It's awful. Way to early to be productive but hey, you don't really get to chose does things. And my stomach hurts so bad I wanna chop it off and throw it 8n the damn garbage truck that came by to early this morning.. Urgh. Complain with me?? Xoxo

Yes you. Smile a bit. It will make you feel better but it will also make the people around you feel better. A smile is contagious and it's something we really need more off. So smile. Make someone happy, make someone's day brighter. They need it, you need it and I need it. Xoxo

Just watched the movie Streetdance. Have you seen it? If you like movies with dance it something you should see, it's worth it. I always wanted to be able to dance, something like streetdance. I did go to dance once, when I was 8, but I quite after 1 term. I don't know why cause I would have loved to be dancing now. What's your favorite kind of dance? Do you dance or do you wish you could?, Tell me Xoxo

I can't belive I been MIA for like 3 weeks.  I was going to make this an everyday blog and I failed... again. But hey, get back up on the horse and try again, right? Really I've been neglecting all social media's and Internet for a while. Today and yesterday I caught up on my YouTube subscriptions. Starting of course with everyone's favourite H&#128191;L&#128191; Queen, Cristine on simply nail logical! And then there's of course Lady Code! Fo you follow them?? Please say you do! Cause they are amazing!! Xoxo 

It's awful how someone can destroy your good mood with just one word. By just reminding you that they exist. I just wanna cry right now. I never hated someone as much as I hate him. He disgust me like no one has ever done. I don't know what to do. I hate that someone can make me feel so bad without even trying. I just hate it so much. Xoxo

Sometimes people make me wanna scream. Like why should I stand something that they wouldn't, why should I jump when they tell me to. Some times I just wanna scream back. Sometimes I wish people would think before they speak. Xoxo

Well not shopping like shopping for cloths and make up and stuff. But to rusta.se and getting some yarn and some fun stuff, let's see what I find. Oh and getting sallad in town, you know the kind that where u pick yourself what u want in it. I just love those, not that I eat them that often. What's your favourite food? Or you go to good? Xoxo

At expressohouse and drinking a lovely caramel latte with whipped cream on top.   Yummy. Have you tried it? Thinking about getting my free normal coffee to cause I haven't had any coffee before today so I could need it. Hmm, we'll see.  Xoxo

Have you ever tried colouring? I don't mean when you where a kid, but now as a grown up? I love it, specially the ones with a lot of patterns to fill in. Got more then one of the colouring books for grownups with animal patterns. And I have a lot of pencils. I just love it and it's so calming. I'm colouring now on the train and it's just amazing Xoxo

Anyone notice how mean and rasistic she is? "The white girl is back". Sign and stare at her. She and her friends is staring Jesse down until Jesse leaves. Like Beca isn't allowed to have friends over but she has two of hers over. And she is so rude to everyone.  Even Becas dad that is a professor at the collage. She just make me so angry and I so hate that girl. No idea why she's even in the movie, she doesn't fill any function more then being really rude all the time. Xoxo

Have you seen it? Have you? Cause I have, many times! Like 100 times, and number 2 I seen like 300 times. I just love the movie, probably cause I always wished that I could sing. It's amazing and so many talented people. I so wish the new movie would come out now, I hate that I have to wait to December &#128546; Xoxo

And i think my head is gonna fall off. Well well, it's just 3 and a half hour left til I get to go home. But still it fell a bit much really. Anyone having a better day than me? Or maybe a worse? Let me know. Xoxo

I'm so so so tired I can't belive it. I had coffee and orange juice. I don't know what to do. Gimme some tips. I have 4 more hours of work left to do.. Well well, smile and look like you enjoy it. Xoxo &#128139;

Oh so nice to get some coffee, lucky I am that they always have coffee ready at work. Well I see you all tonight. Love you Xoxoxo

Okey it's not morning but still. &#128521; How about some breakfast, or maybe it's more like lunch at this time. I don't know, I either case I'm gonna eat. Then it's more work, 2pm to 8,30 pm. Funny bunny^^. But I like working nights, it'd calmer and everyone is happy when they get to go to bed. Well I'm off to eat. Xoxo

There's been people on my blog, like alot of people. I wonder if I knew any of you. But okey thank you for stopping by. I'm just so tired cause it's soon 2am and I need to sleep. So night night sleep tight don't let the bed bugs bite. Xoxo

Are you an influenster yet? No? &#128560; Stop what you're doing! Go sign up now! Here's a great link for you! www.influenster.com/r/2768836 For you how don't know what it is here's a brief description. You sign up, download the app if you wanna. Then it's the most amazing reviewing app for everything from Catford to makeup. There is more makeup than other things but there is a lot of candy, vine and other things to. Here you can read reviews and ask questions and get answers. You will after a while start getting things home that you will have to test out and review for them. I love the app and I'm sure you will to! Xoxo

I go on Facebook and everyone is just like, OMG it's the weekend, no more work, I'm gonna do this and this and party and oh. And I'm just like, eh,  my work is to Starting now,  bye. Tonight, Saturday night, Sunday night and Monday night. But hey, I chose it myself. And I do love it. Yes you heard right, I love my work. Sure it can be heavy and stressful and so annoying but it's so rewarding and I so love it. Proud assistant nurse. Xoxo

I'm a beginner at this. But I feel like a lot of people like to use the beautieblender over foundation brushes. But they are soo damn expencive! Why why why! But I checked eBay and the have cheap ones, dupes of course but I was thinking that even if they're not as good they work the same? Right? And I can try that way if I would like them or not?  Any thoughts on that? Should I try? I mean they're like a dollar. Do u use one? Xoxo

Omg have you seen it? No? Omg go watch it now! But seriously have you seen it? I have, a billon times and I just love it. I don't really know why cause it's not a happy happy move, neither is it a cry my eyes out move. But it is so one of my favs! It does have a great ending thou. And I just love Emma&#128571;&#128571;. Have you noticed I just share what ever pops into my head? Haha I love it! Xoxo

It doesn't matter that it's not my tooth getting drilled, it's bad anyway, just hearing it. My teeth hurts and I feel sick. Can't they just close the door?? Damn dentists. On a better note. I'm cutting bread out of my diet, in the way of eating yogurt or eggs instead in the morning. I feel better and lighter as soon as I don't eat that bread in the mornings. Well well. Ask me anything. Xoxo

3 hours at work and I'm finished. I'm so damn tired and I don't understand why. Or well I had a lot in my head to keep in order so I guess that's the reason. Well anyway. Have you seen shadowhunters? It's great I love the show and the movie to. . Check it out on Netflix. Xoxo

I just found out that I have an appointment with the dentist. I hate the dentist and I sooo don't wanna go! I know what he's gonna say and I know it's my fault I have holes an caries and stuff. But honestly, I have to pay alot to get my teeth fixed so my bad teeth will pay he's salary, so they shouldn't complain so much. On a different note, I just love YouTube and beauty bloggers! I follow like 30 of them or something, like Steph_renn, MrsMelissaM, Lady code, chloe luckin, Bless your heart, and so many more! Do you love YouTube?  Do you love beauty? Do you have a suggestion for one I can follow??? Xoxo

You do don't you? But I'm not, I don't lie. It's true about the ghost, but something that will really think I'm mad is the rabbit. Yeah, everything I'm in Dalarna, there is this white rabbit that follows me. I see it everywhere and I wanna connect it with my fake aunt but everyone says she never had a white rabbit. Well well. On an other note, leave me a comment, ask me anything ;). Xoxo

I do. Or well I call them spirits. I've felt them, I do feel them sometimes. There is a woman outside our house, I can't tell you why she's here or what she wants. But I can tell you that she's been here for a very long time and that she a baby once. Do you belive me? Xoxo

2 hours of sleep, 6,5 hours work in the nursing home. God I'm so damn tired I wanna bury myself for 72 days or something like that. Well at least it gives some money to work and it's the weekend so it was in all honesty a little easier today. I'm still thinking about the YouTube thing but I don't know.. Xoxo

Hey guys. Did anyone follow me here? I'm pretty sure you didn't,  that no one did cause I don't think anyone follows me. But seeing as you are here, let's be friends you and me. I just love getting new friends so send me a question or whatever and I see u later. Well I write about a bit of everything. So stay tuned ;) Xoxo